Investment part 2

Syukur... hari ini saya berkesempatan lagi untuk menuliskan hal-hal yang saya alami dan lalui beberapa hari yang lalu.

Sebenarnya ada banyak hal yang saya fikir perlu saya lakukan, dan saya mempertimbangkan untuk cuba menyelesaikan beberapa hal semasa 'mid-sem break' ini. Namun, ada lagi hal yang saya fikir lebih penting dari apa yang sudah saya rancang. Peluang untuk menanam benih kehidupan  atau mengongsikan hidup bagi orang lain.

Sepanjang 'mid-sem break' ini, saya berpeluang untuk bergaul dengan beberapa rakan sepelayanan, saudara seiman dan teman bermain. 

 

Gambar (diatas) bersama rakan-rakan yang sempat bersukan pada ahad lepas (7hb April 2013). Setiap rakan-rakan saya ini mempunyai fokus hidup, personaliti dan attitude yang berbeza, namun kami dapat bersama kerana mempunyai minat sukan yang sama iaitu sukan badminton. Saya sedar ada banyak orang dan kumpulan lain yang boleh saya ikuti untuk aktiviti sukan seperti bolasepak, futsal & badminton (dan memang saya telah diajak), namun saya memilih untuk melabur masa (hidup) saya dengan kawan-kawan yang saya tunjukkan dalam gambar.

Saya juga berkesempatan untuk berjalan-jalan di satu taman tema bersama dengan 2 orang teman sepelayanan saya, yang saya anggap kawan baik dan kawan yang saya boleh percayai. Ada beberapa hal yang terjadi sebelum ini (yg saya tidak mahu ceritakan disini, buat masa ini), yang membuat saya menilai semula sikap dan perlakuan saya dalam pergaulan dan persahabatan. Namun hari ini, saya boleh melakukan sesuatu perkara bagi kawan-kawan saya ini tanpa mengharapkan imbalan/balasan dari mereka. Saya bersyukur kerana dikelilingi oleh kawan-kawan yang mempercayai dan mengasihi saya seadanya.

 

Walau pun hanya seketika sahaja mengunjungi taman tema ini, namun ianya sudah cukup memberikan pengalaman bermakna untuk merenungkan erti persahabatan, dan seterusnya menghargai peluang yang ada. Dan yang lebih penting lagi adalah menghargai Tuhan yang menyediakan peluang dan memberikan kesempatan yang tidak terduga seperti ini. 

Sahabat anda tidak akan dapat memenuhi kekosongan dalam hati anda, tetapi kehadiran sahabat anda dapat mengingatkan kita tentang Tuhan dan membimbing kita kepada Dia yang dapat memenuhi kekosongan itu.

Investment part 1

Saya lihat, saya telah memperuntukkan sejumlah wang untuk membeli beberapa alatan elektronik. Bukan mudah untuk saya membuat keputusan seperti itu, namun selepas mempertimbangkan pandangan beberapa kawan rapat, saya mendapati pembelian ini berbaloi, suatu yang saya rasa pelaburan yang memberikan pulangan yang baik.

Aliex sedang membantu saya menggunakan smartphone

Pulangan bukan hanya berkaitan dengan perolehan keuntungan kewangan, tetapi juga penjimatan wang dan masa, effeciency dalam melakukan tugasan/pelayanan, meringankan bebanan (hardcopy yg dibawa etc), dan beberapa perkara lagi. Walau bagaimana pun, pelaburan ini perlu diimbangi juga dengan tempoh minimum sesuatu aset itu boleh digunakan [sebelum rosak, koyak, outdated etc.).

Dalam mempertimbangkan bidang yang perlu diberi perhatian sebagai fokus pelaburan hidup saya, saya mendapati relationship connection (family member, friendship, couple-ship) dan  knowledge & interpersonal skill (spiritual life, study background & self-motivation),yang menjadi fokus pengajaran & pelayanan, secara tidak langsung menjadi keutamaan dalam pelaburan ini.

Saya berharap penggunaan alatan elektronik ini akan membantu meningkatkan kadar effeciency dan kualti hidup saya. Dengan itu, saya dapat melaksanakan tujuan & panggilan Tuhan bagi hidup saya. Walau bagaimana pun, dunia perniagaan juga antara bidang yang sudah pun saya terokai dan kini sedang giat membuat pelaburan dalam bidang ini. Saya berharap ianya akan mendatangkan pulangan dalam tempoh setahun.

Perlu diingat bahawa pulangan bukan hanya berdasarkan perolehan keuntungan melalui kewangan tetapi bagaimana projek (perniagaan) tersebut memuliakan Tuhan dan memberkati (membantu) mesyarakat setempat.

Terima kasih Tuhan atas peluang ini. Tuhan bantu saya menguruskan sumber kewangan, masa, tenaga & idea yang engkau berikan ini supaya saya gunakannya dengan baik, seperti yang engkau harapkan. All these thing are belong to you, and for your glory.

Masalah atau cabaran?

Selepas melalui minggu-minggu yang cukup meletihkan dan mencabar, hari ini, saya ambil kesempatan untuk menilai semula penglibatan tindakan dan respon saya terhadap situasi yang timbul.

Beberapa kesulitan timbul kerana salah faham, dimana maklumat, komen dan penyataan disalahertikan. Ini telah menimbulkan situasi yang membuatkan beberapa orang kecil hati dan tersinggung. Jadi, penjelasan perlu dilakukan untuk meredakan keadaan.

Beberapa kesulitan timbul kerana terdapat individu bertindak tanpa [tidak mahu] mengikuti prosedur dan proses yang di terima secara collective respon dalam pengurusan. Ini telah menimbulkan kesulitan dalam tugasan dan tanggungjawab mereka yang terlibat, sehingga ada diantara mereka 'burn-out', rasa dipergunakan dan dipaksa. Jadi,  pendekatan yang saya ambil adalah memaklumkan yang menjadi 'mangsa keadaan' supaya mengetahui hak dan bidang kuasa masing-masing supaya lebih tahu dan yakin bertindak.

Beberapa kesulitan timbul kerana ada individu bertindak atau membuat kenyataan terbuka tanpa banyak usul periksa [check]. Ini telah menimbulkan keadaan yang tidak menyenangkan, membuat org lain rasa terhina dan terancam, sehingga orang yang terlibat langsung itu mulai kehilangan respect dan hilang keyakinan terhadap individu tersebut. hal ini agak sukar ditangani, bak kata peribahasa 'terlajak perahu boleh di undur, telajak kata buruk padahnya'. Mencegah lebih baik dari mengubati. Walau bagaimana pun, individu yang terbabit mempunyai prinsip masing-masing yang berbeza.

Beberapa kesulitan timbul kerana terdapat individu membuat keputusan pembatalan pada saat-saat akhir [last minute] walau sudah sahkan kehadiran atau penglibatan mereka. Ini telah menimbulkan kecelaruan dalam pengendalian sesuatu aktiviti, apatah lagi, jika seseorang sudah menuggu lama namun akhirnya dibatalkan. Keadaan ini membuat orang yang terlibat rasa dipermainkan, kepercayaan mereka terhadap individu terbabit merosot, dan akhirnya mungkin menyebab truma dan penolakan terhadap individu tersebut.

Saya bersyukur kerana berpeluang melihat dan melalui situasi tersebut. Dan saya sedar, tindakan saya juga sedikit sebanyak telah menyumbang kepada permasalahan tersebut. situasi ini memberi pelajaran yang berguna kepada saya.

My Hometown and my family (Part 2)

I feel that i need to give brief explanation about my hometown or my kampong. The story of my kampong's name, Kampong Sayap. As i know, Sayap village named after a story about a group of 'white men' (english mens) monk who came brought them inland villages to spread the teachings of the Christian religion. One day, they were walking on the banks of the small river in the middle of the village and look at the river crested leaves fall from the trees and ask what will the villagers call the leaves that pervades the water, then the villagers replied 'Sahap' but, the english mens is repeated with 'Sahap' pronunciation to 'Sayap''. Once upon a time from which the name of the village was found that during the British colonization of the land North Borneo. I got this story from my grandmother.

My hometown and My family (Part 1)

Today, I thought about my hometown and the people there that I loved. I remember, when I was in secondary school, I don't like to go home when holiday. I feel that my family and my home is not a safe place to learn and experience His love. However, it changed when I started seriously to follow the Lord.

Before that, my home was once quite scary and boring, but now turned into the most peaceful and meaningful place.It does not mean that there are no problems or conflicts that arise among family members, but the environment 'force' me  to questioning myself and lead me to know the plan of God. Now, i see the work of God in the fulfillment of His purpose in my life and my family.

In the past, I find it hard to love and appreciate my family members because they have done a lot of things that embarrassing the family, but now I am able to accept them and learn to love, respect and understand them.  

 

Coming back to my hometown: I've found a friend who had accepted me and my family. They come to me and stand beside me when I face struggle and hardship. Their presence in my life has given me the momentum to do  the best and to be the best, so that i could share the blessings that I receive to them.

I have to say this; the person I loved the most is my mother. Actually there are many stories that I have experienced and been through together with my mother. She not only teach me and remind me of what should I do but she also shows how to do that through her life.

To be continue ... (Part 1)

Opportunity to glorify God & bless others

First time I heard this song was during the youth mini-conference at Nahaba, last year (2012). In this conference, I was also given the opportunity to share my experience to motivate and encourage participants, many of whom are secondary students and tertiary students -Youth generation.

This is the first time I was given such opportunities. I was surprised to be given this opportunity, and I do not have time to prepare for the best. In any event, after this, I will be more prepared, and will use every opportunity as possible to glorify God and bless others, especially fellow believers and my friends. They are deserved to enjoy the blessings that I have received.

Praying brought me closer to my Lord

My situation is better today because I was able to focus with the things that I think I need to do, and I can do it. I realize that this is the case because, last night, I took the time to pray about things that make me feel worry, things that disturb my thoughts and emotions. God heard the prayers of his children.

Today, I also  feel more relaxed and enthusiastic compared to last few days, where I had a conflict with my close friend. Although we have not been able to find a solution to restore our friendship, but I believe the time will come for us to be at peace and closer together. I know that he need time to calm down.

I realize that a lot of my previous actions had caused the conflict. Whatever it is, I leave the matter to God. I have apologized to him, and now I'm waiting for his response so that we can face to face to see this conflict.

That's about the conflict that I faced today, and for last three day ago. However, after praying, I found I was able to think better and more rational and logical. I feel that I have the strength to face this situation. And more interestingly, this situation has brought me closer to the Lord.

Prayer, for me is a conversation with God. I realize, as I honest to God, the more I feel the love and mercy of God, because I know nothing is hidden from God. But He wanted me to give it to Him personally; including my sin, my failure, my pain, my happiness, my blessing, my feelings, my plans, my thoughts, etc..

In short, I just share to the Lord whatever I do, I choose, I experienced, I feel. And finally, God Speak to me, and He talk to me as a friend. He's gently & his voice makes my soul calm. I always gain confidence and peace when listening to his voice.

Thank God, you are my faithful friend, my true friend.

Loving God, loving each other

This song really touch my heart. I just want to keep this song by put the link on my blog, so that i could listen this song whenever i want to.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FwRjF3flJaQ

Our decision is life investment

Today I choose to write about life investment. I am increasingly aware that every day, I have made a lot of decisions, which will definitely affect my situation now and in the years to come. The options that I took as my decision, of course, have an opportunity cost and risk.

Sometimes I was a little jealous to see many of my friends are so easy to make a decision on a matter, including the use of time, money, and energy than me. I also want to be like them, make decisions without considering some things and principles, but I am unable to do so.

I see friends choose to watch the movie for hours instead of using that opportunity to do revision or improve English comprehension & grammar, as they are quite weak in that particular subject. There are also some member are willing to spend huge amount of money to buy certain items and finally having financial problems. So they were unable to pay rent or certain fees, need to owed by borrowing money from their friends who are also students, force to fast because they could not buy food etc.

Well, there are many more unnecessary decision that I saw. And i find out that those decision eventually drive their life into difficult condition, thus allow them to fall into many temptation. Whatever it is, I have no right to prevent them taking any decisions for their lives. I've told them some of biblical principles, but they still doing and never realize that their decision actually influencing  their future, their family, their friends and even the people around them. Even though they are all my friends, we have different principles, but I prefer to stick with the principles that I'm sure is right and true as those principles is biblical  and believe these principles will help me to evaluate and making decision with comprehensive consideration.

I know that I must accountable with God. I always reminded that all these blessing are belong to God, and He entrusted me to manage and use it for the sake of His kingdom & Ministry. He is my master. I can't do anything good without him. Therefore, I know that i had made some right choices, and certainly will harvest it one day.

The Beginning of my story

Today in history: I have started a new chapter in my life by opening my own blog. I realize it require my long run commitment (and thus becomes a responsibility) to keep this blog updated regularly.

Before this, I just write down my ideas, opinions, views, emotional state, life etc in my personal diary. I think that it did not help people especially my friends to know me and for me to share something and thus learn something from what I have experienced and learned.

By the way, this blog will be my platform to share experiences and knowledge, and express my views and stand in some aspects or current issues.